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Why do they have the oath in the marriage vow; when it should be considered as well for anyone that is a friend with someone for a period of time?
Today I saw my dear friend, lover, companion, confidant, but everything but wife for the last time today. It was so so-real that he laid there getting ready to be cremated.
A dear one that lived for sixty-two years, but gone in seconds was pronounced dead on the scene this past Tuesday. We were together till death do us part.
As he laid there being prepared for cremation; I looked upon his closed eyed face and remember the man he was; not the man I saw today. Lifeless, still, and not uttering a word. That was not him. This man that I knew, loved, gave to others freely, spoke kind and unkind words (when necessary), ate good food, drank good wine, but in years to past became ill. Kidney disease he was diagnosed with, but his death was by the hand of a cardiac arrest.
I couldn't hear a word, but in my heart I could feel and hear him. He laid still, but in my mind he was in movement. His eyes closed, but his eyes were quite open when he knew he was very ill.
Do I miss this person? Dearly, yes. I am secure in the thought that he was not alone, for he as with my dog that loved him unconditionally as we humans have an issue with. Do I hate is gone? Dearly, I do. Those are the words we did not share together, but in spirit we were married.....Till death do us part. Do I wish him here again? Truly, I do. Even though it is not our call when we return back to the father; I think of what this man that lay here so still..what was his role in this life. My daughter said it best, "Mom, he was here to take care of you and my younger brother till you could do better for yourself again." I will take that and hold fast to think possibly that is so.
We part by death in the physical, but my dear Steven we are not apart by the spirit. I know you are near, I know that you will look after us that loved you, but especially me, for you always said, "No one can make me stop loving you but myself. I love you always."
I read the words I just wrote and now and forever will love you.
Till death do us part.
R.I.P. Steven You will be missed.