Saturday, September 21, 2013
I thank you for the pain and hardship, for it has given me the strength and desire to prove to myself that I can do bad all by myself. I say that but it is all good, for I am going to be just fine. I don't need you or your kind. I might didn't listen to the lessons that were taught me as I was young, but as time has passed and I have become this grown woman I know the mistakes I have made and I have to fix them to move on to a better place in my spirit. You can get in my face and say I am not worthy or not worth any thing, but as Tuc-Pac said it best, "only GOD can judge me." Yes, only God almighty. He didn't give me this life to be your doormat or for you to disrespect me. I AM SOMEBODY. Yes, I am someone significant to my life and this world. You might not see or you have probably never seen it or appreciate it, but I am here to tell you. I am here to stay until God almighty calls me back to him. You call me names, look at me as if I am lower than an ant, cheat on me, put your hands on me, and you thought I take it; well you are the fool. For there you go in the handcuffs, as they tuck your head down to put you in the back sit of there black and white, and I sign the papers to have you where you need to be; away from me and behind bars. "Give me strength dear Lord to get through it all. I beg of you. I know you are not going to forsake me. If I can get through this then I know I can get through anything. I know one day you will be out from behind that cell, and back on the streets, but when you come to me you best come correct. I am stronger, wiser, and prouder of myself. I have had more than enough. When I wake and lay my head down to sleep I will call out his name and thank him for my life. I will live. I will be GOD's child the way he meant for me. I know GOD doesn't get enough of me calling his hame, but I have had enough of you. (To women that have gone through pain from a man or even one that didn't respect you. I do respect, appreciate you, love you, and I know you are going to be just fine.) MOZETTE
Thursday, September 19, 2013
If at anytime you have asked yourself this question, "why am I here?" You are not alone in the answer. I myself think that I do have a purpose in this life and to post on this blog I ask myself, "Is this for me?" I answer myself; that it is not doing any harm in what I post, for I do believe whatever moves me or whatever comes from my spirit and soul to say; then this is just one of many avenues to express myself. No, I do not have answers, but I think instead of asking yourself why you are here; one should maybe ask "what should I do while I am here?" If you look at the beach and the grains of sand and then look at the universe; consider yourself like the grain of sand. Each grain of sand makes the beach; just like each person no matter the age, race, religion, culture, gender, or even sexually preference makes this earth whole. I hope you find your answers to your life and if I can humbly ask of you to pray for me to still find my way. “Every day, think as you wake up, today I am fortunate to be alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it. I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others; to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings. I am going to have kind thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly about others. I am going to benefit others as much as I can.” ― Dalai Lama XIV Peace be with you all! Mozette
Sunday, September 1, 2013
I didn't want to open the door and leave you, but it had to happen. The love we once had was gone. It was a time to make a change in my life then and there. I looked at you with tears in your eyes. I looked around the place we use to call our "Love Haven"; no longer was it that anymore. Did I want to go? No, but I couldn't live in a lie any longer. My decision did not come easy, for I lost so many nights of sleep and during the day I would scream, cry, and want to end my life. I knew that was not for me to do. I had a life to live and I was going to live it for probably the first time. It is said, "you can do bad by yourself." Well, I was going to find out how much of that was going to true, for I believe I already had the bad when I found you with another. When you hit bottom; from there has to be up. I picked up my bags and looked at you as to look right through you, for you were not the person I thought I knew. I guess I didn't. In the vows, "to death till we part", well I wasn't going to wait till death, for it was killing me to be here any longer with you. I lier, cheat, loss love, and a person that I couldn't trust. When I reached the door I wanted to stop, but I opened it, for I knew if I try to stay again I wouldn't have a life to live.I heard you call out my name as I walked out the door as I said "good-bye" for the last time. As I heard the door close behind me I heard the screams that I had screamed so many times and heard the tears that I had cried so many times. Now it was your turn to hurt. I walked down the stairs to the outside and took a deep breath in and out. I felt like I was breathing for the first time; as I walked down the street to destination unknown. I was going to go where I couldn't hurt anymore; away from you. A man walked past me and asked what time it was? I replied, "it was time for good-bye."