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Sunday, April 11, 2010

They call it....The Change

Hi to those that read my blog. I didn't realize I have been away so long; boy how time flies. While I was away I knew there was something totally different about me; I am now excepting I am in my fifties, true you don't know me but I have a name for it...PERI MENOPAUSE. My son I feel for him; he is going through puberty and I am going through THE CHANGE. Pray for us. Lol..I have to laugh for if I don't I will have my laptop full of tears and then it will shut down too. Through it all I am there for him and he is getting step by step plays on how to deal with his mother so he doesn't want to kill me like I wanted to do with my mom.

I was fifteen at the time she was going through it and here my son is fourteen whilst I go through mine. I feel for you son..if you are reading this. I am here for you. I am not going anywhere just trying to get me back on track. My mom, being it what it be; didn't tell me anything about being a girl, lady, growing into a woman...nothing..nada..not a damn thank you GOD and the education system at that time for being able to read and figure me out. I am still reading about the making of me as female.

Someone tell me why do they have roses, the color pink or puffy white clouds for the packaging or the advertisement for when it is pain, puffiness, anxiety, weight gain, temper tantrums, or even crying spells. Who are they trying to fool? Us? I don't think so..try again. It is more like the deepest red, black, lightening bolts, and thorns on a is nothing pretty about it..but gosh darn are we beautiful women all the same. I digress.....

Change. One of the definition to this word: To alter; to make different; to cause to pass from one state to another; as, to change position,character or appearance of a thing; to change the countenance.

Women...or even that again. This especially goes out to all those women; my sisters that are going through Peri menopause or Menopause...I hear you...I feel you...GOD; do I feel you. We are going through: THE CHANGE. Doesn't that just sound mechanical and awful like we are metamorphosing. Why cant we just say..Coming of her own! Doesn't that sound more pleasing?

The one thing I pride myself on is that I know my body and when my body is going through a new adventure. That is one thing I want all of you to know....your body and what it is telling you and if it doesn't seem right then by all means do something about it don't let it get the best of you. I have a smile on my face but every now and then a grimace but I am going to get through this as a winner. I refuse for this to beat me up or down.

Thanks for reading or hearing me.